The Silence

There is a calm before a storm, there is also a silence before a major verbal attack.
This silence is deafening it is filled with fear... the only thing a person hears is their pounding heart beat in their ear.

Your awareness is heightened... you cringe as you anticipate the brutal lashing that will ensue... you hear footsteps and a door open... suddenly your body tenses as if you were bracing for a car crash.

Words...
"Sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me" Bullshit.
"Bitch, Whore, you are worthless, you are nothing, I hate you, I despise the air you breathe, I wish you would die."
These are only words.... right?

No, these words, are weapons of mass destruction to your soul.
Words can cripple you mentally and emotionally.
Even if a person realizes that the words are not true... the impact of hearing these words from someone who "loves" you is life shattering.

The person on the receiving end of this verbal attack is most likely silent or sobbing...praying for .... silence.

If you are reading this and thinking "Well, that's crazy to allow someone to stay in your life who would speak to you that way" Yes. It is.
But everyday there is someone in this world suffering not by physical abuse... but by verbal/mental abuse. For those people YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

I do not know you personally, but I will assure you that YOU are WONDERFUL person. The reason I know this is because you are one of GODs creations and you believe in second, third, fourth, chances. That is a wonderful personality trait.
With that being said, you have to learn to acknowledge that someone who "loves" you would NEVER, EVER, purposely attempt to cause you to feel negatively about yourself.

Life is too short to live in fear of ....the silence before the storm.